I guess I am finding as I grow up, and through teaching, that just because someone is older or in a superior position, it doesn’t mean they have the right way of doing things, they are considerate, or they think before they speak. Those who are old can be even more messed up than those who are young. They’ve gone through more - which can give them more chances to get messed up.

I’ve also realised the benefit of processing and recording these realisations. Cos I go through so many at work everyday, and if I want to beat that sense of defeat I need to work through this stuff

like. europe?

nickholmes:

The attitude is different there and she could be herself; drunk and a little slutty.   

nickholmes:

Toast is better than bread.

also, mammals in your country are way more awesome than animals in mine :)

I’m not out to please everybody - I’ve actually been out to try not to displease anybody, and that’s even harder work. It’s like Prozac for creativity - cutting off the highs and lows and the risks and the rewards so that nobody walks away from a show or listens to an album with a passionate…

There’s a question commonly asked within the gambling community from one player to another: “what’s your unit?” Your unit is defined by the amount of money you think in multiples of; if you perceive a thousand dollars as ten sets of 100 dollars, that makes your unit 100 dollars. In college, a…

yup, the age old questions- is there a point in praying? does God shut out the cries of people whose everyday needs aren’t being met? what about this daily bread? why do some people have to work so much harder than others for it? 

people left jobless as a result of the recession might cry out to God - where is the justice and equity? why can’t my family have their basic needs met? why are our families crumbling, relationships burning, debt stampeding, why can’t we even have enough food for the table?

especially in countries, (eg Spain) who do, as a group, talk to God quite a bit.

they might find (or not find out, ever) that the systems put in place for that providence to occur are quite dysfunct. certain people are responsible for putting things in place to ensure that people have jobs, houses, food, quality of life. those people might even have said thats what they were planning to achieve when the were promoted or elected to the role. Power and responsibility - did they ever separate? 

To aspire to be a leader - indeed a governor - is to be responsible for providence. theres no getting away from it. The laws that those people in place will, in due time, affect the very basic needs of their people, the needs which those people are praying to God for, to be met day by day. People who often have no idea that the government, which their God has said he’s put in place to take care of the people, are not listening to common sense, wisdom and sound judgement (amazing gifts, freely given!) when making decisions that affect the wellbeing of their nation.

God’s speaking directly to those leaders. Why the hell are they so deaf?

starting to realise the ways in which my actions are reflections of my subconscious. in the far corner of the house…shutting out everything except online sitcoms and electro-shriek music, munching on random things from the fridge, avoiding phone calls.